WOw ! Two posts in one day ! Aiseh man , I should be studying .Or at least pretending to study.

Well , im feeling a bit in-secure today , and very very anxious . Tomorrow is my 2nd round of interviews with Intel for my internship. I liked the phone interview better. Im feeling a bit under the weather lately and not too good about myself. What if I walk in the door and they make an instant judgement on how big my zit looks from an angle or how my hair looks like crap or how my front tooth is cracked ! Oh my GOD ! Im so not ready for this !

And I've been under a lot of scrutiny and pressure from some people since the elections . Dont know what I'm talking about ? Go here : http://meyouanaiesecer.blogspot.com/ or here http://sungaiduaaiesec-ers.blogspot.com/ to find out.

Some people are really happy for me and think I'll do a wonderful job ( gakkk !! pressure !! ) , some knew I would get it and apparently "its about time" ( gakkkk!!! more pressure !!! ) , some just got to know me, elected me and told me to " do your best, we expect it" and "dont dissapoint us " ( gakkkkk !!!! can u say moreeeee pressure ??? ) , some think I suck and dont deserve the post ( what an ego bruise eh ? ) , some think that I'm out to get them ( huh ? whyyyy ? can u hear the "me" trashing in the distance ? ) and some just dont care .

Haihhhh. Its going to be a tough year ahead for me and my team . A lot of things we have to deal with , a lot of shit to fix. But Im quite confident in my team . Especially after our first un-official meeting .

I LOVE MY TEAM and AM PROUD OF THEM ! * i know i dont say this often*


Why anxious ? Combination of all the ingrediants above and also the fact that I haven't studied and can't focus. Hopefully this ranting helps .


P/s: Thanks to everyone who have been so suppotive through all the hard times. Cheta,Ama, Ching, Serena , Nadia, Ranveer , Yin Wei, Sharifah ,James, Sandy, Ekun and Shin Yen, Vance, Zhe Rong , Jess,Pei Yue, Shu Nee, Sumalin , Shu Li , Csilli, and a whole bunch of other people !