Well its another boring day here at Lalaland and i've been sitting around doing almost nothing the whole day. So, while lazing around i've been thinking about this and that , and it occured to me dat nearly all the other relationships i've had besides family ones have no staying power whatsoever.
Then , i started wondering , why was that ? Am i like a horribly uninteresting and terrible person ? well i might be some what terrible but im definitely not uninteresting. Im like one of the most eccentric people u will ever meet in your life. So , dats not it , so what is it? too fussy , too critical ? Nope. Not that either. I was left pondering this for quite some time until a light bulb lit over the top of my head . Too SARCASTIC. Yes , that , i definitely am . Then, it also occured to me that it might not be the main reason cause most of the time no one ever really understands my sarcasm except of course for my brother and mother who are actually better at it than i am.
So, again im at nothing. After a while i thought to myself , hmmmm, maybe its not me . Maybe everyone else is the one that's screwed up. Now that line of thinking might make sense to most people but i dun think dats right either.At the end, i juz gave up thinking why things never lasts with me.For now im just going to blame everything on fate and god like most "normal" people out there do.
But . Well of course there's a but. All that crap i've written up there is just the introduction to what i really wanted to talk about . Do u think im going to let u guys off so easily ? ( although i seriously doubt there's anyone else reading this ) So , back to the but , but , do i regret all the time , effort and love i put into all these lost relationships ? The answer is a big NO, NO , NO . Not for one second i dont.
Some people might wonder why . Especially those of u whom actually know me personally . U noe that i give and put my everything into all these realationships and ill do everything and anything for every single person involved in it. I wont be dishonest and tell u that i wasnt upset at times. Sometimes, i sit and wonder why the people i love the most always seem to leave. But i never regretted ever knowing the people. It was fantastic. All the times we shared. The joy , the laughter , the heartache , the pain , the ups and downs , the tender moments and the fights. It was all worth it and every second has become a part of me and has changed me in some way whether for good or bad.
Some of u are of course wondering why im writing this. Is it to hurt those that have left ? No, of course not. Rather , this little piece is to celebrate those people who have been a part of my life one time or another . Its to thank them for lending a hand in shaping me into the person i am today. Its not my intention to mourn the departure of dear friends and loved ones over the years but rather to celebrate it . Its been an honour.
Most of us are going to be starting a new chapter in our lifes soon . College life. Its defintely sumthing to look forward to . So here to a new beginning. Cheers =) Thanks u guys . I owe u one.
And to those of u that are still a part of my ever weird life , dun worry i havent forgotten u guys , thanks to u guys to.Thanks for staying. Hopefully we have many many more wonderful moments together. Another cheers =) This time , for the future . =)